Yesterday kinda rocked, but also kind of stunk so this title by a song of the same name by Icelandic Band Múm is kind of appropriate.
I’ve been waking up with mild throbbing, pulling tension in my forehead, behind my eyebrows and at my temples for several days. As the days spend out their hours and come to a close, the tension becomes actual pain and a sharp, pounding pressure and continues to mount until I have to go to bed and I feel like I’ve just put my head through a wall. Hot showers, neti-potting (nasal flushing or douching, if you prefer), facial massage, cold compresses, Tylenol (acetaminophen)–nothing I tried would bring relief. Monday and Tuesday night, the pain became so unbearable, I grew dizzy, my eyesight started warping and blurring a bit, and I couldn’t sleep properly. Which is saying something, because I can sleep through a hurricane once I actually fall asleep (which is the usual difficulty for me)! In addition to a lupus/arthritis flare in my hips and back, my head was raging…all in all, Monday and Tuesday night pretty much sucked except for the part where Husby cooked me delicious seared tofu and veggies for dinner and let me veg on the couch all night.
I have never had a headache this bad… nor have I had one last for five days straight.
Yesterday, I came into work, feeling mildly as if I’d been run over, the buzzing in my forehead only getting stronger. I called my Doctor’s office, who was able to get me into the clinic the same day. Then I checked in with the bosses (I work for a couple), who said, “don’t even think about taking your work home, just go home and rest,” and by 11AM I was out the door for the day. (I love my bosses and my job. So grateful for them.)
1.5 hours at the doc. It wasn’t stress, it wasn’t a cluster headache (as I feared), not a tension headache, but a sinus problem. I have managed to develop allergies. Never in my life have I had allergies. Even when I lived in the smog and pollen ridden Midwest, I did not have allergies. Damn you, tropics and your perfect climate for flourishing molds and fungi! All that damn mold from living in the rain forest and all the mold we regularly have to clean away from our rainy mountain top home have made me develop allergies! That explains the X-men mutant strength blue and brown dark circles I’ve developed over the last year that make me look like someone beat the living sh*t out of me every morning, which I must cover with corrector, foundation and strongly pigmented concealers (4 layers, people!) everyday to look somewhat normal. (I swear you can still see them through all that cr*p.) And the random sneezing (I thought it was just because my office and car–two places I spend a lot of time in–were dusty). And the headaches. And the dizziness. And the eyeball probs. But seriously, allergies SUCK. Husby has LOTS of them. It has, on occasion, been absolute misery for him.
After the disappointing news at the doctor, my head still raging, I decided to call my massage therapist and see if she could squeeze me in. YES. 1 hour of relief. With half an hour to kill, I decided to eat lunch by Koko Marina at a local coffeehouse. As I walked in, one of my favorite local recording artists, Jon Yamasato (also here), was floating through the place, and silver light flooded the walls as it reflected off the water of the marina. I just sat, listened to the quiet and contented conversations of the patrons enjoying their coffees, heard the whir of the coffee grinder and the hubbub of the staff making lunches and lattés, watched the sun glint off the water like glitter alive. That moment felt as if I’d come upon an oasis. My head still pounded… but everything felt less chaotic.
Then, massage. Om, b*tches. Serious om. That’s all I can say.
Then, head still pounding, but less badly, I picked up yet more items at the drugstore, grabbed my prescriptions from Costco (where I noticed, in the loo, that someone had installed the toilet paper holder upside down–another example of wonderful Hawaii construction standards, LOL) and then headed home, by which time it was already almost 4:30PM. What? So much for working from home.
I tried to eat something and then spent the next hour medicating; massaging my arms, back, temples and forehead; inhaling bergamot and tea tree-oil infused steam from a hot compress over my face; applying Biofreeze to my inflamed hips and lower back and watching HGTV. Fell asleep by 6 and then woke up again only to take a nap from 8-9:30 to make myself a hodgepodge of dinner and clean the kitchen. I missed seeing sunset (sunset chasing is one of my newfound hobbies), which can be epic in my neighborhood due to the moisture and atmosphere that develops on this slightly wetter side of town. Sad. I’m not sure how I spent the time the rest of the night or what time I even managed to drift off to sleep, but I know it involved re-watching more episodes of Downton Abbey, House Hunters and The Property Brothers before I completely conked out.
How do I feel today? Dizzy, lightheaded and sore. But at least I don’t feel like I got run over by a truck, so that’s better. But I’m a bit annoyed and frustrated.
Because of this new development in my body there are yet more drugs I must take from now on, in addition to the half bottle of supplements, vitamins and couple lupus-related meds I already take daily. I’m a healthy person… I eat right (mostly), I exercise (more than the average American), I hydrate, stretch, try to be positive and live [mostly] drama-free, but man, all this pill popping and these headache issues really chap my ass. Can’t I just be normal for once? So. F*cking. Annoying.
I guess there’s a price to pay for paradise after all. I’ll take it. Despite this stupid hiccup, I’m still insanely lucky to live here. And no matter what, I still wouldn’t want to live anywhere else. Ever.
How are you today?
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